It is such a relief to know that there are others like me and find answers to help explain why I am a psycho freak who never seemed to fit in this world.
Now that I seem to have more answers to why/what I am and the experiences that one has when going through the crystal process, I hope to seek others like me who have also felt as if they don't belong here on earth.
I don't like words much and will often prefer to use body language, facial expressions, or sounds to communicate. I have a connection with animals, especially cats, to the point where I've had strays walk up to me when I communicate with "cat noises". I love to massage people and have helped some via massage. Like, my roommate has a foot condition and sometimes will use crutches for a week if his foot is hurting. I massaged him the first day he was using crutches and he ended up speed walking to work (about a 3/4 mile walk one way). I also cured one girl's arthritis in her hands.
People tell me that I am gifted in art and music. I can feel and sometimes see electromagnetic fields around electrical devices and have had some odd happenings like lights or the computer turning on in my presence.
My older sister, who is a violet aura, tells me that I have a big heart (empathetic), will put others' happiness first before my well being, and that I'm forgiving. I tend to get anxious when people argue around me, and I get depressed from watching television. I'm hypersensitive to light, solar flares, smells, touch, sounds, toxins, etc. I developed allergies in my mid twenties to mildew and electricity. I seem to sense the weather fairly well, feeling how dry or humid the air is. One time when I sensed the air was dry, I told somebody that we need to be careful or else there could be a fire that night, and there was a fire in Ely, the town where I grew up. A few weeks later, New Mexico had the biggest fire in history.
I refuse to play along with humanity and be untrue to myself. This often leaves me feeling alone and misunderstood. I am not materialistic at all (have very few belongings), and I despise the fact that people are so judgmental and value an individual based on skin deep beauty or wealth. I am sensitive to solar flares and feel dizzy from it. I get easily overwhelmed by crowds or people and often run away from confrontation and retreat to my own little world. I value creativity. Others tell me that I am compassionate and often I hug people and will talk to any stranger who starts up a conversation with me (with a few exceptions since when I sensed danger). Unfortunately, I'm one of the earlier scouts, so my experiences with people haven't been the most positive (mostly they didn't believe me or they abused my kindness). This has lead me to become withdrawn from society as I often tell people that "society" broke my heart.
I seem to have fairly good intuition when it comes to "timing." One time I told someone that I'd arrive in two dozen minutes and arrived exactly 24 minutes later. I can pick up tension in a room or sense if someone is not happy with me. I was diagnosed with autism at a young age, but I've learned to deal with it well enough so that others can't tell. To them, I just appear to be an eccentric, kooky person with tie-dyed pants.
I know what my body needs, and my diet has changed within the last few years. I refuse to eat fast food and have recently incorporated more raw vegetables in my diet, as well as blueberries and/or other fruits. One roommate of mine told me that I was from the fourth dimension once. Another person, a complete stranger, came up to me and talked about how he died as a child and came back. Then he told me about his encounter with God and the messages he was given. He spoke of how all humans are actually angels, how important it is to value education, how there is inequality between genders, etc. Pretty personal stuff that he wouldn't had told just anyone (since others would say he was insane).
A number of people have trusted me and told me things that nobody else knows, because they feel comfortable around me and know that I don't judge them like most people would have.
Finally, the kicker: my current roommate and I did an experiment using an electrical device to test our conductivity. The device was called a vol-con elite, and you use two metal tips and touch them to whatever you want to test in order to see if it's conductive. We tested my roommate, who has metal screws and plates in his leg from a leg injury. He wasn't conductive. I put the metal tips to my fingers on both hands, and I made the device beep, which meant I was conductive. My roommate was in shock. I made sure to take off anything on me that was metal such as my belt and keychains (I don't wear jewelry because it annoys me. I'm also very picky about the feel of clothes on me too). After I stripped down to just having cotton clothes on me, I tested myself again and I came out conductive just like before. Is it coincidence that crystal gemstones can be conductive, sort of like a weak battery?
My roommate and I have tested our conductivity twice at different times, and the results were the same. Not to mention, on December 21, my roommate and I meditated to start off the New Age we were entering. Initially, he was going to play some classical music, but I insisted that he play the music he had from the fifth dimension. Why would I request that music?
Hopefully, I don't come across as pompous or that I'm bragging about what I can do (I'd rather just do my thing and show people what I can do rather than tell them what I'm supposedly good at). I don't do things to be good at it, and I hate when others compare themselves to me. It is always awkward to deal with since I don't want to be arrogant and try my best to remain modest. Unlike most humans, who learn a new skill to become "good" at it, I learn a new skill because I have a passion for it, and I find that when I put passion into what I do, the skill or "gift" will come naturally. As I feel the passion and excitement increase when I'm doing something, the learning process is accelerated and I seem to pick up or learn new skills quickly.
